As I sit here in the living room with the monitor turned up, as the rest of the gang is asleep in the bedroom, it occurs to me why Kate can sleep a 2-hour stretch during the day and not at night: the dogs are friggin noisy. They get up, scratch, drink, walk around, slam their bodies to the ground with a huff (what the hell, are they practicing for the WWE?)… how the heck do we manage to sleep through that? Well we do. Kate… not so much. I’ve already had to go back in to nurse her back to sleep, and expect I’ll have to do it again before I’m ready to call it a night. Grrr. (And in case you’re wondering, the dogs sleep on the floor, Kate’s in her crib, and Den’s in the bed. ;) )

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Because air conditioner season is growing to a close and we will soon be saying goodbye to the white noise is provides, I bought a $20 CD player. I have some great lullabye CDs, but my current favorite for sleeping is actually a CD I purchased while doing IVF, it’s a relaxation cd for meditation and such. It’s lovely soft music to fall asleep to. Unfortunately it’s not quite so good at being white noise and blocking out other things, so to accomplish that I’m using her Sleep Sheep, the rainfall setting. I try not to test my luck with banging around, but it works pretty well for filtering out, say, the dogs barking downstairs.

Unfortunately the Sleep Sheep’s sounds are on a 45 minute timer, which means it cuts out before she’s had a decent nap, and most certainly doesn’t work all night long. The music I set on repeat all, so it plays constantly. But how irritating… I want the white noise to be constant, and the music to stop after so long. What to do, what to do. (The Sleep Sheep has underwhelmed me. I paid how much for a small plastic white noise maker with limited settings that is stuffed inside a stuffed animal?)

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Kate’s eyes are turning decidedly brown. We figured they would, as they have been a steely grey-blue since she was born – she never had strikingly blue eyes. But I held out hope for blue. Mine are blue, as is my entire family’s. Den’s are brown. Brown is dominant but there was a small chance I would prevail. I’ve been studying her eyes practically every day since she was born trying to see any hint of what was to come, but all I’ve ever seen is grey-blue. Yesterday morning as I changed her diaper I looked deep into those eyes and noticed they were a little lighter, and a little more beige-tinted instead of grey. Today it is even more obvious, there is much less blue in them. Soon it will all be gone.

It’s such a silly thing, I mean she has many of my other traits. I don’t know why I held on to those eyes so hard – maybe because my eyes are one of my own favorite traits. But I am sad. Just a little.

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What is with this warm weather all of a sudden?? Kate and I both slept like crap last night and I can tell it’s going to be another lovely night for us both. It is too warm for snuggles, and if I plug the AC back in I have to unplug the music. Grrrrr.