2 more telling signs: my temperature this morning was really low – it had been steadily climbing quite high. If the temp jumps back up tomorrow it could be an implantation dip. Also, there was pink spotting in my CM today. Makes me think I O’d on CD13.

Funny how we do this, when it’s all conjecture anyways.

Went to my new PCP today, and here are some notes:

My weight: 135lbs
Blood pressure: 122/70 (I need to research this, I have no idea what it means)

He was concerned about me being on Celexa. Zoloft is a class B for pregnancy, and he said that doctors generally prefer pregnant patients switch to that. But he also mentioned that either way it’s an SSRI, so… I’m not really convinced that Celexa would be any more dangerous. It’s only a class C because less research has been done on that particular drug. I’ve talked to other women who stayed on celexa during their pregnancy with no problems whatsoever, and I am quite leery of switching to another drug and risking having an emotional crash and burn. But I’ll talk to my new gyno and make my decision after that. If Zoloft does the same thing for me then it shouldn’t be a big deal. But I don’t know.

I asked the doctor if he will want to see me when I get pregnant, he said no – the gyno he recommended is very capable and will handle me more than adequately during my pregnancy (and delivers babies, he said :D ). I also asked if his office sees children patients, and he said no. He said where he takes his kids is a pediatric office which happens to be right down the street from us on the main road – it’s the one I had made note of when searching on the insurance company’s website. He said they have very long hours, open 7 days a week, and are very good. So I’ll definitely be going there.

Now I just have to make an appointment with the new gyno. Hope that goes well. I should have done that months ago after my initial appointment with the gyno I didn’t much like, but… meh. I’m lazy, what can I say. I will say that, whatever this new gyno says about my meds, I’ll not be putting TTC on hold for it.

I really want a baby. Today I took Zoe for a walk and started working with her on “heel” – because I want to be able to walk her when I’m pushing a baby stroller. Now I have to work on getting her claws under control, because those things are wicked.

This is only our third month of trying, I guess I can’t expect too much yet.

Fertility Friend really can’t decide on an ovulation date. This morning it tried changing it to day 19, which I know isn’t right. So I changed the detection method to FAM and it changed it to day 13. I’m leaving it there for now. Blah, I just wish it’d be easy to see.

I’m beginning to think I’d like a little boy. I’ve always wanted a little girl. But everyone except Alicia has a boy right now. Meghann’s little boy is so absolutely adorable he makes my heart melt. And he reminds me of Cory, in some pictures. My little brother was the damn cutest little boy ever. Granted I’m biased, since I’m the big sister, but he had these adorable pudgy cheeks and big front teeth and he was just soooo cute. I remember when he used to say “nake” instead of snake, and follow me around, and say, “Daddy daddy daddy daddy” a hundred times a day to get dad’s attention. And I think… yeah, that wouldn’t be too bad at all. Besides, we already have a boy’s name picked out!

Interesting tidbit: I am getting a headache tonight. Last cycle I got a headache the day before AF showed. (Due to my temp drop today I am expecting AF tomorrow.) Also, this cycle I had 4 headaches between AF and ovulation, and then nothing until tonight. Hmm. Pointing to hormones.

Temp dropped WAY down this morning, and today I’m dealing with stomach aches and cramps. Started spotting. AF is well on its way.

So, no October baby for us. I’m disappointed, but not very upset, considering how I felt about October. I am, however, now feeling anxious about next month because it’s our last chance for a 2006 baby. :( That makes me feel panicky.

AF arrived today and I feel yucky. I haven’t taken any Midol, because I haven’t been in pain at all, but my stomach is so upset, I have to keep running to the bathroom. Blah!

Funny aside – last time I was shopping I remembered I was out of normal sized pads, so I bought some. Now I figured that something with “medium” on it would be fine. These things are tiny little panty shields! Good thing I’m having a light day. :shock: (Yes, I still forget what brand I usually buy. That aisle is way overwhelming!)

Now… planning for a November baby. I want this one to work. If it doesn’t, we take a month off and Den gets sent for a sperm analysis. He’ll love that.

Suffering from some pretty major irritability today. When Den talks, he annoys me. When he touches me, he annoys me. I think I nearly hit him earlier when he tried playing with my hair. And when he started humming I almost yelled. Yikes. I think I’m going to stay in the bedroom today… I’m obviously unfit for civilization.

Well this period didn’t follow the same pattern as the other three. The others were medium-heavy two days, then light two days, then spotting for a day. This time it was light-medium for one day, then heavy for a day, then light, and now barely spotting. Weird. Shaved a day off my period. Three days, can’t argue with that. :D

I’m still terribly irritable and grumpy, though.