I thought I was ready for the inevitable with this cycle.<\/p>\n
I thought I knew what was going to happen.<\/p>\n
However I did NOT anticipate finding bright red blood at 10 days past retrieval.<\/p>\n
It caught me so off-guard, I just sat there and stared trying to figure out what I was looking at. The last thing I’ve been looking for is bleeding. Last cycle I didn’t start bleeding until two days after I stopped the progesterone.<\/p>\n
I am angry and confused. I am PISSED OFF. What the fuck is this? I didn’t miss a single progesterone suppository. I haven’t been setting my clock by them, but I’ve been taking them three times a day at the same general time every day (when I get up, around 3pm, and before bed). So what the hell is going on now?<\/p>\n
And as much I was expecting a negative beta, my first thought was, “If there was anything there before, there isn’t now.” My body just hit the flush button. And I am irrationally angry at it (as if it is some seperate entity or something). I feel betrayed.<\/p>\n
I think IVF#2 is henceforth to be known as “To hell in a handbasket and losing my grip,” because that’s exactly how I feel. I’m fucking done with this shit.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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