Yesterday pretty much sucked for the first half. I slept, and when I woke up I had cramps… full on honest to god cramps and they hurt like hell. That’s when I made that post. I didn’t want to take midol until I actually got AF because, you know, there’s always a *chance* that I’m wrong… but I couldn’t take it any longer and took some midol. I took tylenol first, but that didn’t do jack sh*t. Finally the cramping subsided and I could get ready to go out. (I had a very nice evening out with some girls. It was great!)<\/p>\n
I got home to find that I had finally finally<\/i> started bleeding. Very little more than spotting, but it was finally starting. I just felt such relief. I’ve never felt relieved<\/i> when AF started before, but this month I didn’t let myself think that late = pregnancy. (And after having several alchoholic drinks and taking midol I would have been pretty freaked out had I actually been pregnant!)<\/p>\n
So I slept in today too, and woke up to… a mess. Thank god I didn’t get anything on my sheets or mattress. (I’m very protective of my sheets!) But I can absolutely say that today is CD1. Time to start the birth control. I’m feeling a very very slight amount of discomfort – I can feel my stomach gurgle now and then – but it’s like I got the cramping and major nausea out of the way already. How weird is that. (Just hope it doesn’t come back around to bite me in the ass later.)<\/p>\n
This month is going to be pretty full though. This coming wednesday we have our IVF overview class, then the week after I have my pro-op consult. Then it’s the lap on March 13 and a week off work. (But I’ll be working the weekend before and the weekend after to stay on top of things – just won’t be working for about 4 days to recover.)<\/p>\n
I’ve been feeling a little unsure lately about the IVF thing. Maybe it’s a bit of denial and a bit of guilt all mixed in… but I’m feeling like IVF is “real” infertility and that we shouldn’t get there (and with it the sympathy for having to go through IVF) without doing all the leading steps. Clomid to IVF. But it all comes down to money, and the fact that injects would cost us $700 out of pocket and still probably not get us pregnant. I guess we just have to do what’s right for us and I need to stop worrying about how “others” will judge me\/us.<\/p>\n
One last little tidbit: Friday night we were at a big fancy casino. We walked around for a while after dinner and came across a large pool – no fish, just for decoration. Of course there were lots of coins in it. So everyone was flipping coins in the pool for good luck. Den gave me a coin and told me to make a wish. I kind of scrambled around in my head and threw the coin. I made a somewhat stupid wish – I felt sheepish when I told Den. Den replied very sincerely, “I wished that our IVF would be successful.”<\/p>\n
Damnit. That was SUCH a better wish. Can I change mine?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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