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<\/a><\/p>\nSo far it’s looking like Ember’s will go brown, though I’ve learned not to take anything for granted. I will always wonder if maybe Devin would have been my blue eyed boy.<\/p>\n
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Having two children has not been the huge life-altering disaster that some other people alluded to. It’s been pretty smooth in general, and I am extremely thankful that my toddler loves her new baby even 2 months later and that the baby is a pretty easy-going non-colicky child. I am aware that it could be so, so much worse. Actually my only complaint right now is Kate’s pushing boundaries which is of course totally normal 2 year old behavior and would be frustrating to deal with regardless of baby. (I deal with it mainly by taking a lot of deep breaths, reminders to myself that she is just figuring out her independence, and chocolate. For me. Lots of it.)<\/p>\n
The trick that I have not<\/i> figured out yet is how to manage two at once in public. I can take them both in the car just fine. I can take them to friends’ houses no problem. But a place like the playground? Kate wants me to help her on the swing and teeter-totter, plus she goes climbing up the biggest things she can find where she just doesn’t feel quite steady and needs my hand. Meanwhile it’s stupid hot and humid out, Ember doesn’t like being in the mei tai or sling, and she needs to nurse at the most inconvenient times. I feel like I either have to sit and take care of the baby’s needs (shade, nursing, sleeping in the stroller) and just watch Kate, or I lug Ember around helping Kate out. Today I settled for a little of both, and both left me feeling unsatisfied. Kate did manage to solve her problem for a little while, though; she walked right up to some random 8 or 9 year old girl, took her hand, and brought her wherever she needed help. Kate apparently has no problems making friends and getting them to do her bidding. It’s pretty funny, actually… she does it anytime she sees older girls.<\/p>\n
Oh and Kate has apparently decided that she wants to ride in the stroller, which either leaves me carrying Ember in my arms while pushing the stroller, or Kate having a fit stomping her feet and refusing to walk while Ember’s in the stroller. I guess I need a double stroller sooner rather than later, because this is ridiculous. (And having Kate strapped in has definite benefits!) I really hope Ember starts to like babywearing very soon.<\/p>\n
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It is hard for me to process that we are done with family-building. On one hand I’m excited to start getting rid of stuff as Ember outgrows it – things I don’t need to store in my basement anymore, yay! I am looking forward to a time when the girls are a little bit older and can play together, when we can do fun things as a family like go to Six Flags. I am amazed and excited to watch them grow and become little people all of their own, to watch their personalities come out and discover who they are going to be. There is so much in our future.<\/p>\n
I have been in this world of fertility and pregnancy and babies for so long. I’ll never have to go through treatments again, never have to wonder if I’m going to miscarry or even get pregnant at all. But I’m also never going to get that heart-stopping moment of a positive pregnancy test, never have that big secret to tell the world; never feel a baby roll and kick, never anticipate another labor. I feel self-imposed pressure to try to take this all in, to document every single thing, to try to hang on to it. I’m going to be that woman sobbing over her baby growing up, I can see it now.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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