I give up. I utterly give up. The last two nights I have been laying in Kate’s bed in the dark for an hour and a half<\/i> trying to get her to fall back asleep. She wiggles, she cries, she tries crawling away from me, she tries crawling on to<\/i> me – tonight she actually did fall asleep draped across my chest and neck, but that so does NOT work for me. I’d do the usual waiting until she was asleep and limp and then I’d get up to leave… and her head would snap up. I supposed I could have waited even longer to leave but I’d already been in there for a fucking hour.<\/p>\n
This is not working. This is NOT working. It was<\/i> working, once. We were making minuscule steps forward. And now we’re just heading in the absolute wrong direction. She’s not getting sleep, I’m not getting any time to myself, and I’m just realizing that this needs to change.<\/p>\n
So this weekend we’re bringing in the crib, and she’s going to learn to fall asleep without me. I have no idea what that’s going to take, but I imagine no matter what we do there is going to be crying since me trying to put her beside me instead of on top of me causes her to sit up crying.<\/p>\n
I took her in the bedroom tonight sniffling and crying because I knew it was the last time I was going to lay down and cuddle her to sleep (at least in normal circumstances). By midnight I was crying just out of frustration.<\/p>\n
I wanted<\/i> this to work. I wanted to be all cool and not use a crib, to cosleep and seamlessly transition to her own room and end up with a kid that sleeps as well as anyone. I want to continue to cosleep half the night. But clearly none of that is actually working out. I know part of being a parent is flying by the seat of your pants and adjusting your expectations. But damn it hurts.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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