I feel like I’ve spent my whole life playing catch-up… not-good-enough. I have a serious lazy streak that combats daily with my obsessive personality. I always feel like I’m 10 steps behind… that I should be more organized, more tidy, more on top of things. Den and I are moderately organized people. We have calendars. We’re punctual. We take on responsibilities. But we’re forgetful and somewhat spacey (thus the need for the calendars – if it isn’t written down it does NOT get remembered). We’re “I’ll do it tomorrow” types.<\/p>\n
If there is anything being a parent has taught me, it’s that I will NEVER be “all caught up.” Not ever. My house will never be perfectly organized. My calendar will never be perfectly scheduled, my days never perfectly planned. Kids just change too frequently! We settle into a routine and it works for a while, and then suddenly it stops working and everything goes to hell… until you figure out the new<\/i> routine. She gets sick, misses a nap, has a bad night, poops when I don’t expect it… the list just goes on and on.<\/p>\n
And you know what, I think I’m finally getting it – I think I’m finally okay with it. I always thought that I should<\/i> have it all together, that I was somehow failing. I’m realizing that it’s a myth. We all just live day to day, especially with a family. The moms who say they have everything going perfectly? They’re lying. Right now I love more than anything sitting down with a friend and admitting all the things that we don’t have quite done yet, that the kids aren’t sleeping through the night yet, that the house is always cluttered in some way. I like honesty, it’s reassuring.<\/p>\n
I forgot I was supposed to be at a Dentist appointment yesterday. The couple of bills that are payed by check are sometimes a couple days late (thank goodness for scheduled online bill pay for the rest). The dining table is half usable and half piled with photo albums and magazines and weird shit I don’t have a spot to put away. We’ve figured out Kate’s nap schedule for the moment, but next week it could very well change. That’s just the way it goes. I’m learning to just roll with the punches.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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