{"id":3080,"date":"2010-07-26T22:08:10","date_gmt":"2010-07-27T02:08:10","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/?p=3080"},"modified":"2010-07-28T17:25:11","modified_gmt":"2010-07-28T21:25:11","slug":"planning-again","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/?p=3080","title":{"rendered":"Planning again"},"content":{"rendered":"

In the past I attended 2 of the Resolve annual conferences in NYC, but I knew there was a more local conference in MA – I just couldn’t go to both. This year I am not feeling ambitious enough to go to NYC so my plan is to hit the MA conference. Last night I was bored with a baby asleep on my chest (meaning I couldn’t go do anything more useful, such as eating or cleaning) so I was cleaning up my calendar for the year. I looked up the conference info for Resolve of the Bay State<\/a> and scrolled down their page to make note of the time and place. There’s someone’s picture on the page and before I even scrolled down I thought, that looks kinda like Mel<\/a>, haha<\/em>. Then I read what it said: “Our Keynote Speaker, 2010: Melissa Ford.” OMG! It IS Mel<\/a>! Aaahhhh! So not only do I get to go to a kick-ass conference in November but I get to meet the totally kick-ass Mel in the process. Anyone else in MA should put it on their calender, too!<\/p>\n

Den and I have been discussing when we are going to return to the RE and how we are going to manage it. We have one frozen embryo from the cycle that created Katherine, but I won’t bank on that one being all we need. Right now our hope is to return to the RE in 2012, when Kate is a year and a half old. I’m pretty sure she’ll have to be weaned before we cycle again, and I absolutely won’t wean her before a year. Plus I’d really like to give her all of my attention for a while. We do want to give her a sibling, but I admit there are times when I wonder if we shouldn’t just stop here and just let it all be about her. I’m obviously not ready to split my attention yet.<\/p>\n

Doing IVF again is going to be very different than all the times before. We have Kate – no matter what, we have Kate. There isn’t a black hole we are trying to fill, a blackness trying to swallow us whole.<\/p>\n

It’s still hard, though, hearing others talk about having more children. Other moms talk about when<\/em> they’ll try for another and if they want more – they don’t talk about how they’ll afford to and if it doesn’t work. They don’t have to consider childcare during surgeries and the emotional toll it takes. No, most people talk about accidents or getting pregnant as soon as they decide to. Even though I’m on the other side, I’m a mommy now, I’ll never be able to join in on those conversations. It’s one of the many little reminders.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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