I had problems getting to sleep last night, because I was thinking about testing. This morning I woke up all at once, feeling anxious and negative instead of excited and hopeful. I layed there for a while before getting up to test. I grabbed my watch to time it. I puttered around the bathroom as I waited. I’d glance over at the test every 30 seconds or so. One line came up nice and dark. One line.<\/p>\n
At this point… I just don’t really believe I’ll ever see a second line – not without something to give me reason to believe it (like doing IUI or something that ups our chances). Month after month, I stare at that test and one line develops. At cycle 10 you’re really thinking, if it didn’t happen the previous 9 months, why would this month be any different?<\/i> Thankfully, state of mind does not affect the amount of hcg in your urine.<\/p>\n
So no more testing for me. I don’t think I’ll be testing early next month either. I’ll just wait, and see if I’m late. At this point I’d be downright shocked to get pregnant. *sigh*<\/p>\n
(Oh, and to make me even grumpier – I was so preoccupied with testing this morning that I forgot to take my temp. Gah.)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I had problems getting to sleep last night, because I was thinking about testing. This morning I woke up all at once, feeling anxious and negative instead of excited and hopeful. I layed there for a while before getting up to test. I grabbed my watch to time it. I puttered around the bathroom as […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":71,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[],"tags":[7,8],"class_list":["post-301","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","tag-thoughts-and-emotions","tag-ttc1"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/301","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/71"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=301"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/301\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=301"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=301"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=301"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}