{"id":2999,"date":"2010-06-05T19:26:40","date_gmt":"2010-06-05T23:26:40","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/?p=2999"},"modified":"2010-06-05T19:28:54","modified_gmt":"2010-06-05T23:28:54","slug":"its-really-not-that-bad","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/?p=2999","title":{"rendered":"It’s really not that bad"},"content":{"rendered":"

I hope my last few posts didn’t come across as despondent, because honestly, it’s not that bad. Is it hard? Yes. But I have an amazing husband (who has not gone back to work yet, so he’s here full-time to do this parenting thing with me), I have a lovely daughter, and I’m just trying to figure the rest out. I do want to make sure I write it all down, though… I want to remember all of this, even the hard bits. I promise to post lots of gushy bits, too… they come pretty much in equal measure. <\/p>\n

Yesterday I made my first purchase off of craig’s list. I figured that since Katherine loves (LOVES!) her baby papasan swing so much that it would be good to try the baby papasan infant seat in the bedroom. Much to my delight there was one available on craig’s list and yesterday we drove out to pick it up. It was a good price, it was in good shape, and I was very happy to try it out.<\/p>\n

We’ve tried different things at night: we put the cosleeper mattress on an incline, we used a sleep positioner so she’d feel snug, I’ve swaddled her (she woke up pissed<\/i> that she couldn’t move her arms), not swaddled her, used the bouncy seat… no dice. Now keep in mind that she sleeps great during the day, either when one of us are holding her or in her swing. But at night when I just really wanted to lay down and sleep, too, I’d nurse her to sleep then tenderly put her down… and she’d wake up 5 minutes later, flail around a little bit, and start crying. When sleeping she cycles frequently between a deep sleep (when she’s out cold and nothing can wake her) and a lighter, active sleep (when she’s squeaking, smiling, wiggling). What I have noticed is that if she’s asleep on one of us she’ll frequently open her eyes and glance around during her lighter sleep, then sigh and fall back asleep. But when she’s in her cosleeper or bouncer or wherever she just isn’t happy and can’t – or won’t – resettle once she hits one of those lighter sleep periods. Except in her swing; for whatever reason she’s happily slept for 3-hour stretches in her swing since day one…. it’s the one place we can put her down to sleep and go eat, shower, or just stop sweating. (It is horribly humid, when she’s laying on me I sweat like crazy, yuck!)<\/p>\n

Thus the reason for buying the infant seat. We got it set up, I nursed her to sleep, I carefully put her down in the seat. She sighed, settled, and continued sleeping. I was excited! And then….. THHHBBTTTTTTT. She filled her diaper. I sighed and counted down… 3, 2, 1… Wah!<\/i>. She woke up crying. So unfortunately I had to do it all over again: change, nurse, carefully put her down. There was some squirming in her sleep, some peeking around, so I flipped on the vibration feature. And she fell back asleep! Three times overnight she went down for sleep in her little chair, and three times she stayed asleep for a couple of hours before waking up to feed. I got actual sleep in bed! Ahhh! It was such a relief that she slept. Of course each time she’d start crying and I’d wake up I’d have this moment of panic wondering where the hell she was. I could hear her but she wasn’t nestled up against my belly, causing me to sit up and look around in a momentary panic. Of course she was in the infant seat right next to me (we put it in her cosleeper so she was literally right there).<\/p>\n

She’s asleep on my lap right now, something that I really adore. She makes all kinds of squeaks and sighs as she sleeps – a little distracting at night (as I keep checking to make sure she’s still asleep), but during the day we frequently find ourselves just staring at her happily. I am trying to get pictures of her cute little faces.<\/p>\n

We’re not getting a whole lot done, but we’re pretty happy with this life we have right now. We both wish Den could stay home from work permanently – it is so nice having him around. We watch a lot of movies and HGTV. I’m able to read a lot of stuff online, but writing is harder because I really hate typing with just one hand. My base of operations is my desk chair – it has arms on it, I put a pillow and then my boppy on my lap. Kate nestles on top against my chest, it’s just the right height for nursing. And the chair has wheels, so if needed I can slowly wheel myself across the room without disturbing her. My desk is in the living room so I’m able to watch TV, use my laptop, and eat (as long as someone brings me the food, lol) while my lap is occupied. It’s convenient, but my butt hurts sometimes, lol. Den has taken over the rocking recliner. He seems pretty comfy. He’s very good at soothing Kate and getting her to settle in his arms… he’s very handy to have around. ;)<\/p>\n

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I hope my last few posts didn’t come across as despondent, because honestly, it’s not that bad. Is it hard? Yes. But I have an amazing husband (who has not gone back to work yet, so he’s here full-time to do this parenting thing with me), I have a lovely daughter, and I’m just trying […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":71,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[445],"class_list":["post-2999","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-pics"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2999","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/71"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2999"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2999\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3002,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2999\/revisions\/3002"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2999"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2999"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2999"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}