It’s so strange, in a way, that my daughter will choose her own birthday. It is strange for me, as someone who likes to have control of everything around her. I had my fingers in every aspect of my IVF cycles, planning out dates a year in advance. It’s what I do. I chose (in a manner of speaking) her due date. But her birthday is out of my hands. It’s up to her. I feel a sense of relief at letting go.<\/p>\n
It’s also weird to go to bed every night wondering if this is going to be the night that things get started. Especially when I’m having contractions all the time, and after I lay down they can sometimes start to come a little more frequently. But then I figure either I’ll sleep through the night and wake up in the morning not in labor, or I’ll wake up later when they get stronger. So I sleep… and I wake up when I have to pee. Without any big signs of labor blaring.<\/p>\n
I can’t believe she’s in there, wiggling around, full size, and could just… come out at any time. And be a baby. Like, a real, live baby, wiggling and squeaking and everything. I watch my belly rolling, I talk to my belly monster, I have all the baby things around the house. But she’s my inside-the-belly baby. I really can’t picture her coming out<\/i>. We’re just in this pattern of killing time now that I’m done working. Oh don’t worry, I have plenty of projects to keep me busy this week. I’m not booking appointments in advance, I’m not really making plans besides, “If I’m still pregnant I might stop by.”<\/p>\n
I am still feeling pretty good, though things are starting to get a little more uncomfortable – namely, my lower back. It’s not horrible or anything, just tight, especially at night when I’m trying to sleep. I’m trying to be good about stretching it out and Den gave me a nice massage today. I might call the chiropractor for another appointment next week (if I’m still pregnant!). The heartburn is back, and it’s gag-worthy at night. Blech. Not much else. My feet may be a tiny bit more puffy (and vein-y). I’m still wearing my wedding band, but that’s getting tight with this warm weather. And the stupid braxton-hicks continue to send me to the bathroom frequently. (I just checked…. oops, the wedding band is stuck, rofl! Guess it’s time to take it off, sigh.)<\/p>\n
I’m just sitting around waiting for some sign that things are progressing…. and I’m not getting any. Not that that means much, I know things can start with a bang, but I’m also mentally preparing myself to go overdue just so it won’t be some huge shock if it happens. It’s kind of funny how our attitudes can change so drastically when we think we have an “end-by” date and nothing happens, I see so many women suddenly decide that they are DONE at their due date, even though physically nothing has changed!<\/p>\n
Don’t fret, I should have my blackberry with me when we go to the hospital. I have access to twitter, facebook, and my blog from there, so at the very least there will be something on twitter, though likely I will post something in the blog. (Note that you do not have to be subscribed to twitter to read my latest tweets – they show up on the main page of this blog, above my posts. But if you do want to subscribe, just request it… I have it set to private to keep the creeps and spammers away from me!) The word will certainly get out. And since I plan to labor at home through early labor I’ll probably make it over to blog about it before heading in anyways. ;)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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