To be honest, I am so annoyed that I don’t have a clear idea on which name to use for this baby. Denis too is frustrated by my indecision, but has remained neutral, saying he loves both names (though he’s clear on which one he’d choose) and it’s up to me. He knows how I make decisions using my emotional brain, that I am waiting to feel it, to know it. But he also knows how deadlocked I can become.<\/p>\n
This is not something anyone can help me with. I have gone up and down the list of pros and cons (in my head) of each name, of why it may or may not suit her, of problems we may or may not run into, of which full name I like better, which nickname I like better, what people will end up calling her, what peoples’ reactions will be, and what she will eventually think of her name. I tried a suggestion where I call out each name in my living room; it was supposed to clarify which name suits our family, which name fits in our home, but instead I realized they both equally failed as I still simply cannot picture a child in this house. I am paralyzed with indecision and anxiety. I want not just a good name, but the perfect<\/i>. I fear regret.<\/p>\n
Obviously I am far, far over-thinking this.<\/p>\n
I never expected to be this person, the one with the nameless baby. Especially not after Devin, who was Devin from 18 weeks forward, whose very identity and name brought me so much comfort (and yet so much pain). For him there was only one possible name, the perfect name, and it was so easy. Knowing who he was ahead of time seemed so precious to me. I want that again. I don’t want<\/i> to go into the labor room not knowing who she is. I don’t want to be panicking at the last minute.<\/p>\n
This baby has been problematic from the start. She never had a nickname and now she doesn’t have a real name, either.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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