{"id":266,"date":"2006-07-24T04:25:27","date_gmt":"2006-07-24T08:25:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/ttc\/?p=266"},"modified":"2006-07-24T04:25:27","modified_gmt":"2006-07-24T08:25:27","slug":"fearing-but-wanting","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/?p=266","title":{"rendered":"Fearing, but wanting"},"content":{"rendered":"

A little off-topic, but I’m feeling so worried about babies lately. First Erika’s<\/a> Sammy went in for his second surgery a few days ago, and after the surgery he had a scare with his vitals all dropping and his lungs filling with fluid and other very not so fun things. It’s bad enough knowing that the poor baby has a heart condition. And then Jen went into labor and Evie’s heart wasn’t beating after she was yanked out via c-section. Thankfully both babies seem to be healing well and getting ready to finally go home. But man… that’s just so scary. I think everyone thinks about pregnancy and labor with such a positive feeling, and the worst fear you have is of the pain of labor. I sure never gave much thought to all the bad things that can happen, because it happens<\/i>, just not to people you know<\/i>. Now that’s not the case.<\/p>\n

But even with all that, my heart still pangs. Seeing Kel’s nursery all set up, seeing Jen holding baby Evie… makes my heart melt. *sigh* I really really want to believe that it will happen any month now. I hope so, I really really hope so. Another week or so before I can test. What can I give to make this month the one? I’m going to feel like I hit the jackpot when this finally happens. How hard is it to get a sperm in an egg. Come on, spermies! Do your damn job!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

A little off-topic, but I’m feeling so worried about babies lately. First Erika’s Sammy went in for his second surgery a few days ago, and after the surgery he had a scare with his vitals all dropping and his lungs filling with fluid and other very not so fun things. It’s bad enough knowing that […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":71,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[],"tags":[7],"class_list":["post-266","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","tag-thoughts-and-emotions"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/266","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/71"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=266"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/266\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=266"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=266"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=266"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}