Okay, I’ll try to make this brief because I really need to crash in bed. It feels like all I do now is work, come home, eat something (anything!), try to respond to emails before crashing in bed. Wake up tired, rinse, repeat.<\/p>\n
The bleeding had pretty much stopped completely when I went to bed last night and there was no more when I woke up. But regardless I slept very poorly, on edge and having vague nightmares of loss and anxiety. When I woke up I just layed there for the longest time, not even wanting to get out of bed and check to see if there was bleeding or not. So I knew I had to go in. I’m sure the anxiety would have dissipated over the course of a day or two, but why carry anxiety if you don’t have to? Who is it going to hurt to go in and just get checked? My pride, that’s pretty much it. I wasn’t scheduled to be at work until later today, so I didn’t even have to take time off. (I just had to haul my ass out of bed, that was the hard part.)<\/p>\n
I walked in feeling sheepish, sighing and shaking my head, but the tech is just so so nice. She knew why I was there. It wasn’t because I honestly thought I was miscarrying, I would have been freaking out if that were the case. But I was just rattled enough to need to see with my own eyes. The ultrasound quickly showed the little bub floating around in its happy little bubble. Looked more like a teddy bear today, upright (on the screen at least), leg and arm buds a little longer and splayed right out. Gave me a giggle, actually.<\/p>\n
So yet again there is NO sign of bleeding in my uterus. Sac is perfect, baby is perfect, placenta is perfect. There are no hematomas, nothing. But she did point out some blood vessels near the entrance to my (closed) cervix that had a bit of an active sparkle. It’s down there that is causing me grief. I can’t really explain the way she did, but it’s just that my blood vessels are still adapting and growing and changing and they’re leaking a little bit, is how I envision it. I’ve been spotting off and on for weeks since this started, and I kind of got used to that, it’s stopped bothering me, even red blood is just par for the course this time around. But the last week or so I have not had any spotting. Now silly me I thought that meant it was finally done… noooo. Instead it was all collecting right at the top of my cervix, or in my cervix, clotting a little bit, and then yesterday it came out all at once causing me to freak.<\/p>\n
What I’m going to take from this? Apparently this pregnancy spotting is normal for me, it’s probably going to keep happening for a little while, and it is NOT affecting the baby. That’s what I wanted to see, you know? And I know, I know – what seems like a lot of blood on a panty liner is probably a pretty tiny amount in the grand scheme of the uterus. I’m just… leaking. I hope it stops at some point.<\/p>\n
The other interesting thing I saw today was that the placenta is very clearly anterior – it’s in front this time, not in back. It is NOT previa, not near my cervix, which is a good thing. It’s not that anterior is “bad”, it’s just that when the baby is small it cushions the movement so I probably won’t feel any movement for a good while – I’m not expecting anything until 17 weeks or later (that’s when I felt Devin’s first kick). I was really really hoping I would feel something sooner this time, with this being my second and all, since I know feeling it is really going to get me through this. So I’m a little sad about that, but it’s all healthy, and that’s obviously the important thing.<\/p>\n
I do have a picture but I honestly do not have the time or energy tonight to scan in it. Tomorrow.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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