I seriously feel like I’m just going to start crying. I feel so freaking depressed. I know I should be staying positive and not stressing out – sometimes I think that’s why no baby has stuck yet, because my body is just such a crappy place to be. I know getting pregnant is not going to solve everything – I have problems that go way beyond (in)fertility. But man… I want to see those two pink lines. I’d give anything. I want to move forward now. There was a point when I’d think, “Well, this month isn’t the best to get pregnant…” Now I’m like, who cares?! So we’re going to be travelling and having a party and wearing my wedding dress (not like that would be an issue at only 6 weeks pregnant) and the decision of whether or not to tell people there, and money and everything… don’t care. I’d cancel it ALL if I had to, if it meant I’d be pregnant.<\/p>\n
This is going to be a wicked hard 2 week wait. I have the overwhelming urge to test, and I’m only 5 dpo! (It is unlikely to get any kind of positive before 14dpo… but at least testing gives me something to do, right?? I need<\/i> something to do. I just went through all the ticker sites I could and played with them and created pregnancy tickers. Then I put them all on one of my temp pages so I could stare at them and decide which I liked best, which I’d put on which forum. I’m going crazy here, people.)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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