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I want to say thank you all so much<\/em> for all of your congratulations and joy and celebration. I get giddy every time I read my comments – and wow, I am stunned at how many of you have dropped in just to share in the joy! Thank you!!<\/p>\n ::<\/p>\n Today I was sitting at work rubbing at my lower abdomen, which was aching yet again, when suddenly the light bulb went off: this isn’t my ovaries aching, it’s more of a random, sharp, pulling kind of pain. It’s got to be round ligament pains. It didn’t occur to me because I never really had round ligament pains with Devin (even in my third tri). This is very unfamiliar to me. I’m not concerned about an ectopic, because it switches sides, and I have no tube on my right side (the high beta also supports the idea that this is not an ectopic). It’s just a little uncomfortable, I have to move a little more slowly at work and be careful when I do things like shuffle my chair forward or sneeze. It’s definitely a reminder that something is going on, and I can’t complain about that!<\/p>\n ::<\/p>\n The nurses still hadn’t called me by 2:30pm today. I had started my day feeling blissful, moved on to impatient, and then started getting jittery. Work was very slow, which gave me even more time to stare at my phone and check that for sure<\/i> there were no new messages. I gave them a call and left them a message at 2:30… you know, just in case they’d forgotten about me or something. It’s usually not that late when they call.<\/p>\n Around 3pm I saw the call come in (my phone was on silent at work) and I jumped up to run into to the back and take it. It was the nurse. She was practically giddy. “I have some good newwwssss for yooouuuuu!” she sing-songed. Beta was 248, a very, very nice number, right where we want it. She said she and the other nurse were so so happy for me and were practically dancing around the office when they got the lab results.<\/p>\n I go back in friday for another blood draw to see the numbers go up, and then they’ll schedule my ultrasound!<\/p>\n I immediately called Den, who was also sitting by his phone all day, waiting for the news. He sounded faintly panicked when he picked up, but I was so outwardly happy that I didn’t even bother playing coy. I told him the number, repeated it twice, and then he just kept saying, “Okay,” and letting out a big breath. He was so scared that I was going to call him crying. He’s still trying to let it sink in that everything is good so far. We’ve both just had too much bad news in our past.<\/p>\n ::<\/p>\n To be perfectly honest, I think I’d like to just fast forward through the entire first trimester. I want to start showing, I want to start feeling movement, I want to get some ultrasounds that show me an actual baby in there, and to be able to check in with a doppler. Right now it all just feels too make-believe still.<\/p>\n I am definitely running through the gamut of emotions, though in an almost detached, reserved kind of way. There is definitely a lot of joy and happiness, but it is a lot<\/i> more muted than when I got pregnant with Devin. There are worries, of course, but not in that overwhelming panic-filled way of my ectopic. I’m quite relieved that I am not freaking out, because after the last pregnancy-turned-disaster I didn’t know what to expect. But this time I feel much more confident, much more “right.” I’m still very aware of everything that can go wrong – that’s the hard part. This is a wonderful, wonderful achievement, something to celebrate about. But it is still just the first step. We’ve gotten the BFP and good first beta… next up is the second beta and then the ultrasound. It’s just one step at a time.. and hopefully each step will let it sink in a little bit more. It is my turn, goddamnit. This one’s going to stick.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" [4w1d] I want to say thank you all so much for all of your congratulations and joy and celebration. I get giddy every time I read my comments – and wow, I am stunned at how many of you have dropped in just to share in the joy! 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