I’ve realized that all my life I’ve been making the mistake of planning for the future based entirely off of the present’s wants\/needs. It’s really quite arrogant, thinking that I know what my future self will want in 2 years, 5 years, 10 years…. but I constantly let that image of the future dictate my choices now. It can be something as mundane as furniture placement to bigger life decisions like a career. Yes, I get frustrated by how I should lay things out based on furniture that i do not yet own, nor will I own for quite some time. Yesterday I had a little laugh at myself and realized what an idiotic thing that one was… especially since we can move furniture. And do I really think that I’m not going to want to move things around in 5 years anyways?<\/p>\n
I realize that a lot of people have problems focusing too much on the short-term and do not plan well. I am not one of those people. I am so far-sighted I constantly trip over my feet. I have to continually remind myself to let go. The question shouldn’t be what will I want in 10 years… the question is, what will work best right now<\/i>? Let’s just deal with today’s problems as they come. It’s a lot easier to handle that way, rather than trying to take on the whole entire big picture at the same time.<\/p>\n
I need to do more things that just simply make me happy.<\/p>\n
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First lupron shot is complete. In my head I have been very quietly counting down to this day, this first injection. Yet when it came I layed in bed, staring at the clock, knowing it was time… and there was a hesitation to get up, to walk over there. I’m just taking it one day at a time. The IVF cycle still seems a good distance away. I’m not sure I’m ready yet to admit that it’s here. At the same time, though, there has been enough waiting.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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