first found out you were going to be ours<\/a>, two years since that light came into my life. I know most people don’t consider a positive pregnancy test the start, but with you…. you left too soon. But I had 8 months with you. 8 months of feeling the happiest I’ve ever felt in my life. 8 months of knowing that things were going to be different… that things were<\/i> different. And this was the start of it. Staring at that pregnancy test, feeling my heart race, feeling giddy and shocked and struck with a sense of wonder beyond anything I had known. I looked at that positive pregnancy test, with two pink lines, and knew you were there, growing.<\/p>\nI can’t believe it’s been 2 years since then. By the time I get pregnant with your next sibling there will have been 2 years between successful IVF cycles. That is the timing I wanted between you and your sibling. I want to keep this happy and remember all the good things, but it’s been a long time. I’m getting so tired, baby boy… so tired of waiting. I can accept the reality that you will never be here with us, but I can’t understand why you don’t have a sibling growing yet. We almost did. We thought we did.<\/p>\n
I don’t like watching the time go by.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Dear baby boy: It has been two years since we first found out you were going to be ours, two years since that light came into my life. I know most people don’t consider a positive pregnancy test the start, but with you…. you left too soon. But I had 8 months with you. 8 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":71,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[252,69,102,131],"class_list":["post-2074","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-devin","tag-loss","tag-memories","tag-time"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2074","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/71"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2074"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2074\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2091,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2074\/revisions\/2091"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2074"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2074"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2074"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}