Every time I cycle I have looked to online support groups for girls cycling at the same time… in many ways it has been a comfort, a source of encouragement and community. IVF is such a weird thing, it’s kind of nice to be around others who understand all the jibber jabber – they understand just how devastating only 2 embryos is, while the rest of the world says, “… Is that good?”<\/p>\n
But as my last negative was sinking in I avoided checking in with the group. I had this overwhelming feeling that I was going to be left behind while they all moved forward… that I was simply in a different time and space. That’s not what ended up happening, much to my surprize (the success rate was shockingly low for the group), but that feeling lingered.<\/p>\n
So this time, especially since I’m not stimming, I’m not doing the group thing. I did poke around, but… I really don’t feel it. It’s a little strange to be flying solo… it feels a little lonely. But it’s also a bit of a relief, too – there’s no one else I need to worry about, no one else I need to support. No worrying about making new friends. There’s no comparing dates and numbers and symptoms. Maybe this is just better for me at this time.<\/p>\n
This cycle feels like a ghost cycle in so many ways. I’ve gotten so used to doing full stims cycles. This is like… an alternate reality, a dreamland overtop of what’s real.<\/p>\n
Tomorrow morning my first actual appointment of the cycle. Ultrasound and blood draw to make sure my body is ready to head into post-ovulation and transfer. A cycle without any kind of ovulation… how very strange.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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