{"id":1540,"date":"2009-02-13T22:44:21","date_gmt":"2009-02-14T02:44:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/?p=1540"},"modified":"2009-02-13T22:44:21","modified_gmt":"2009-02-14T02:44:21","slug":"the-image-around-every-corner","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/?p=1540","title":{"rendered":"The image around every corner"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>An unexpected moment brings it all flooding back. Just a glimpse, a photo, a sudden reminder of what others have so easily. My heart breaks all over again. The wall crumbles, the tears fall.<\/p>\n<p>The pregnant woman. Everything I want so desperately, everything I work so hard for. She is beautiful, so achingly beautiful&#8230; but all I can see is a hazy grey as my soul recoils in anger and hurt. It is sudden and takes the wind right out of me.<\/p>\n<p>I cry at the anger. I grieve the joy I once felt as such pictures. I grieve the me who celebrated with them, awaiting my own life inside. The anger disgusts me, and yet it is so, so deep. So much jealousy and envy, so much anger at the mere thought that someone else may not appreciate what they have half as much as I would.<\/p>\n<p>If this cycle fails&#8230; I just don&#8217;t know what I will do. I hurt so much.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>An unexpected moment brings it all flooding back. Just a glimpse, a photo, a sudden reminder of what others have so easily. My heart breaks all over again. The wall crumbles, the tears fall. The pregnant woman. Everything I want so desperately, everything I work so hard for. She is beautiful, so achingly beautiful&#8230; but [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":71,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[76,78,69],"class_list":["post-1540","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-ivf-3","tag-ivf-4","tag-loss"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1540","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/71"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1540"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1540\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1541,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1540\/revisions\/1541"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1540"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1540"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1540"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}