Exhausted.<\/p>\n
It seems I haven’t left myself enough time to write much lately. I have been very busy with my work, and I’m not getting good sleep. But a good part of my lack of free time is because of my obsession with the house plans. Oh yes, it is a full blown obsession. I come home full of ideas and sit down to sketch them before I even get food. I’m half hoping this goes away… and half not, since it’s giving me something to do and think about other than the IVF\/baby stuff.<\/p>\n
The doctor let me know what he wants to do this next time: all hMG (Menopur), no FSH (Follistim). They’re starting me on 3 vials (225iu) of Menopur a day, and having me come in after 3 days to see how it’s going. I have to say I am really nervous about changing things in a big way like that. But of course my friends point out that this could be the change that makes a difference. I just really hate gambling.<\/p>\n
The estimate for things is to start Lupron on the 14th, with retrieval and transfer in the first week of February.<\/p>\n
I’ve been on the pill since I started my period, but Friday and Saturday I missed taking them. I’ve been spotting pretty heavily ever since, and it seems to not be getting lighter. I’m getting really frustrated and irritated by it – this was supposed to be my month without<\/i> wearing pads. The nurse said that spotting after missing some is normal and to just keep taking my pills, but I’m seriously considering stopping the pills for a withdrawal bleed and starting again…. which would push everything back a couple weeks, but that doesn’t really bother me. I’m giving it another day to see what happens. I really do not feel like having 3 solid weeks of this half-assed bleeding. Screw that. (And no, this is not at all unusual for me. When I was on the pill as contraception it would happen every time I miss more than a day. But I don’t know when my body will stop bleeding because every time it happened I would just do another AF and start again.)<\/p>\n
I’m having a very hard time being at all excited about this cycle. I guess it’s hard to be upbeat when you’ve just been punched in the gut. I just have no idea what to expect from this and I feel extremely guarded.<\/p>\n
If this cycle gets another negative I think I’ll be taking a cycle or two off just to rant and rave and be angry. I’ll need some time to mentally prepare myself for another try.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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