My viciously upset stomach faded away over the course of the day, leaving me to realize that, yeah, my ovaries are upset. I’m very tender. It’s the constant, physical reminder of everything that’s going on, even when I just want to forget about it.<\/p>\n
The thing is, my body responds like a PCOS-er… but I have none of the other markers for it. I ovulate every month, I don’t have cysts, I’m not overweight, I don’t have insulin resistence, and my hormone levels are well within normal. But give my ovaries any FSH and they just balloon like you would expect of a PCOS body. On the good side this does give me somewhere to look for answers and solutions – since PCOS is so common there is a lot of literature about it. Unfortunatey it’s not that amazing. Stim low and steady. Wow, I never thought of that! *smacks forehead* I did find some reassuring articles about how coasting for several days can bring E2 down without compromising egg quality or pregancy rates.<\/p>\n
That’s my main concern right now, and why I feel very little hope at this point. Even if they do manage to control my E2 and get me to a successful retrieval, the addition of all these small follicles make the likelihood of me getting some mature eggs out of me very slim. The more there are in total, the less care each one is getting. I saw that clearly with my first two cycles: more follicles in the first cycle led to a decrease in quality. Granted the second time we only had one mature one, but it was a very good quality. When you only get one mature egg, you need to make sure it’s been nursed very very carefully.<\/p>\n
I’m still just at a loss to comprehend this, really. I went over all my records, and at no point did I have a million little follicles explode out of nowhere in the middle of my damn cycle. My first cycle I did overstim slightly, but right from the start. Each cycle the number of follicles stayed pretty much the same from my first monitoring appointment to trigger. So this is unprecidented with me.<\/p>\n
I really hope I get some answers tomorrow, because I’m just struggling to understand. As much as I try to find something to blame for it, I just can’t. Unless dropping my FSH dose down could somehow be responsible, but that seems pretty far-fetched. It appears this was yet another one of those weird, unpredictable occurrences.<\/p>\n
I’m just tired of this. I’m tired of being unusual, I’m tired of not knowing what to expect. I’m tired of being shit on.<\/p>\n
I really was so hopeful this cycle. It was looking good, we were going to improve on our track record. I was so looking forward to retrieval. And now, if<\/i> we get there, I still don’t feel much hope.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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