I just lost my whole goddamn post. I am pissed off.<\/p>\n
I got to the clinic before the lab even opened, just so I could be the first one in and out. It was not to be: my lab slip wasn’t there and I had to wait for a nurse to arrive to get it all set for me. Good thing I had my blackberry to putter around on while I waited, instead of staring blankly at the wall.<\/p>\n
I got my blood drawn and was immediately called back to an ultrasound room. Mental note to self: being called back immediately does not guarantee you will be seen immediately. Do not leave blackberry\/reading material on other side of room when you are pantsless on an exam table. I knew that the very moment I got up to grab something would be the moment that someone walked in, so I stayed put, swinging my legs, reading the posters about the uterus and ovaries, and adjusting the paper “sheet” that floated ethereally around my legs.<\/p>\n
When the ultrasound tech came into scan me I realized how different the person I am today is from the person I was a year and a half ago. Today I watched carefully, guardedly. What is that on the screen? Why is she measuring that? Is that bad? Are they going to cancel my cycle?? Don’t tell me that.<\/i> Then she said, “Everything looks good!” Lining is nice and thin, lots of antral follicles in my quiet little ovaries.<\/p>\n
My meds were delivered to my house today while I was at work. (I actually got an email notification on my blackberry from UPS that it was delivered – so I was able to text hubby, who was down in the basement watching sports loudly, to ask him to go upstairs and bring it in.) So tonight I pulled out one of everything and… then promptly forgot what to do next. I had to go digging through my papers to refresh my memory with the written instructions.<\/p>\n
I keep getting tripped up by things that are different now. I forget that it really has been a year and a half since I last cycled. I go to the lab and inform them I’m IVF, because on the weekends the clinic used to fax down the paperwork to the lab, and they look at me like I have two heads and say I need to go get my lab slip. I walk into the office and say I need a lab slip and I am informed that I must sign the clipboard, but it’s a different sticker than before and I get confused. The forms to fill out for surgery, and even the consents, are different. I just want to keep saying in exaspiration, “But that’s not how you did it before<\/i>!”<\/p>\n
I find it really hard to trust that this is happening now. I’m excited, and yet I keep waiting for something to go wrong. Again.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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