I get annoyed when I view my blog. I do like that quote I have up there, I do – but it should be a ticker there. On some forums I do have a ticker for Devin, but for whatever reason it doesn’t feel right to put it here. That spot is waiting for a pregnancy ticker.<\/p>\n
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The news from insurance today is: still pending. The woman even put me on hold to call the department that handles that type of pre-authorizations, but all they could or would tell her is that it was “pending” and someone is “working on it right now.” Which could mean anything from someone really is<\/i> working on it right now and I’ll get an answer tomorrow, to it’s sitting in a cubby above someone’s desk and they’ll maybe look at it later.<\/p>\n
My heart pounds every time I call the insurance line (and then sit through the million prompts, and listen to elevator music while I’m on hold). I really try not to think about how tight things are getting, but when I’m sitting on the line hoping for an answer it grips me.<\/p>\n
On the good side of things today, my period did not arrive two days early. I’m spotting more heavily than before, which really made me fear the worst. I held my breath every time I went to the bathroom. But it’s just spotting, no flow yet, so I can breathe for another day. If she comes tomorrow I should be within the safe zone… assuming insurance comes through.<\/p>\n
Thursday is a holiday, I doubt anyone is going to be working on pre-authorizations, which means they have to give me approval tomorrow or I’m up shit creek. There is nothing more I can do, and that terrifies me. I hate this being out of my control. I hate that filing the pre-auth was two days late – those two days may cost me this cycle, and how fucking angry would I be if that happened.<\/p>\n
For now I’m really trying to just run on the assumption that it’s going to work out and I’ll be starting stims on friday. I think I kind of have to make that assumption, or it’s not going to be pretty.<\/p>\n
I spend my time thinking about the house and how we can move things around and fix things up – what we can do long-term and short-term. That calms me down. It’s a nice distraction… and currently the vision is a hell of a lot more dependable than future babies.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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