Over the past 3 years I have beccome very good at reading my body. I stopped charting, but even still I could tell when my body ovulated. I could tell when AF was imminent. There were twinges and feelings and I just could tell.<\/p>\n
So when my body was giving me all sorts of fucked up signals this month I was just so frustrated. I was sick, I figured that added into it – even though I was sick during what should have been my luteal phase. So there I was, my cycle longer than ever before, and I was having twinges. Definitely not AF twinges. That’s when I really started thinking I was pregnant. I mean, I know<\/i> my body. I know<\/i> those weren’t the start of AF cramps. Those were something else. And I hesitatingly, secretly harbored the hope that it was something snuggling in. That it was a pregnancy symptom.<\/p>\n
Well I got my blood test done today, and a voicemail with the results. I had the wrong twinges in mind. I just ovulated.<\/i> My progesterone was high, definitely ovulatory – and so was my estradiol, suggesting that it was recent. (Oh, and for all you die-hards: the beta was negative.)<\/p>\n
I think a, “Well, fuck,” and a, “DUH” crossed my mind simultaneously. When I think about it now my body was definitely<\/i> telling me. I’ve had EW CM all the way through from when I was supposed to\/thought I ovulated. I attributed it at first to being sick, and then thinking maybe it meant pregnancy. But no, Occam’s Razor. What’s the simplist explanation to EWCM that continues? Still haven’t ovulated yet. And all those twinges and weird feelings? Yup… ovulation. At least I know exactly what day: Sunday.<\/p>\n
The “fuck” because, ovulation on cycle day 38?! What the fuck?! And now, this means another week and a half. OMFG. A 50+ day cycle. Right before IVF. I want to scream. Honestly I expected to hear one of two answers today: “Oh, you already ovulated and AF will show up tomorrow,” or, “Anovulatory, sorry, here’s some meds. AF will be here in a couple of days.” Not another nearly two weeks!!<\/p>\n
The good side of things is that the nurse, unprompted by me, said that I could do a short cycle of birth control pills to get me back on schedule for a December cycle. The bad part of that? She added, “If you wanted to get a cycle in before the end of the year when the clinic closes.<\/i>” (Emphasis mine.) Oh yeeaaahhhh, I forgot about that. The clinic closes down at some point during the year…. sometime around new year’s. Umm. Yeah. I do<\/i> want to get a cycle in before then.<\/p>\n
Oh, and we have zero chance of pregnancy this time because no sex, since I was waiting for AF.<\/p>\n
I guess I shouldn’t be too surprized by all of this… the depression has been creeping up a little bit, starting a new job, trying to get a million and one things done… it’s not too terribly surprizing my body took a hike on the long road. But still. I am<\/i> surprized. My body’s never pulled a stunt like this before.<\/p>\n
Hopefully the pill can get everything back on schedule with me no worse for wear. I’ll have to spend some time with my calendar tonight, re-plotting things out. I think it should be okay. And at least this means the sono won’t have to be done the same week as my wisdom teeth extraction. That was not a nice prospect.<\/p>\n
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Update: Okay, I crunched the numbers in my calculator. A “short cycle” before my next cycle is no longer going to work. By the time my period finally shows we’re looking at approximately 5 weeks before my stims cycle needs to start (approx Dec 7) in order to get retrieval (approx Dec 17) and transfer (approx Dec 20) before Christmas. So actually this new schedule is simpler: I start BCP when I get my period, and stay on it for an extra week (4+ weeks of active pills), and go off it when we need AF to start for the stims cycle.<\/p>\n
I’m obviously going to talk this over with the nurse tomorrow (or, well, leave her a detailed voice message and see what her take is, since I’ll be at work and not allowed to answer my cell). We have to make SURE I get that sono done right away to get insurance approval soon as I get insurance coverage so I can get my lupron ordered. It’ll be a little crunchy. But we can do it.<\/p>\n
By the way, did I mention how happy I was to talk to the IVF nurses again? I love them! They make me very happy I returned to the same clinic. They took such wonderful care of me the last two cycles, they’re very helpful and friendly and understanding. Talking to them was kind of like a warm blanket of reassurance and familiarity. I’m walking on old ground, now. I know this path. I know this journey. (Did I mention that in the voicemail the nurse explained what my numbers were? Progesterone and Estradiol levels both. I don’t know if it’s still noted in my chart that I like numbers or if she just did it anyways – but either way I love it!)<\/p>\n
This is all starting so soon!! I’m starting to get excited now! I’m scared to get excited, in case this falls through, but right now we’re still on track. Eee!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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