{"id":1315,"date":"2008-10-13T22:16:58","date_gmt":"2008-10-14T02:16:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/?p=1315"},"modified":"2008-10-13T22:16:58","modified_gmt":"2008-10-14T02:16:58","slug":"anger","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/?p=1315","title":{"rendered":"Anger"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I really don&#8217;t know how to get past the anger. It is normal, my therapist says, it is normal. But I don&#8217;t <i>like<\/i> it. I don&#8217;t like feeling this way all the time.<\/p>\n<p>I feel like lashing out all the time. Stupid comments, ignorant things, irritations that I really should just roll my eyes out. I feel the anger build and I want to throw down my stuff, storm out and quit. I QUIT. I&#8217;ve had ENOUGH of this stupid shit!<\/p>\n<p>I haven&#8217;t yet. I don&#8217;t want to stupidly say something I&#8217;ll regret 2 seconds later. But I feel it simmering just under the surface, seething.<\/p>\n<p>I don&#8217;t know what to do about it, I really don&#8217;t. I can write about it, vent and yell, but it&#8217;s still there. I think I liked the deep sadness better. At least that was justifiable, understandable. This seems so out of left field. It makes me feel so out of control.<\/p>\n<p>I long for peace. I hope someday soon I can get past this.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I really don&#8217;t know how to get past the anger. It is normal, my therapist says, it is normal. But I don&#8217;t like it. I don&#8217;t like feeling this way all the time. I feel like lashing out all the time. Stupid comments, ignorant things, irritations that I really should just roll my eyes out. [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":71,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[76,69],"class_list":["post-1315","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-ivf-3","tag-loss"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1315","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/71"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1315"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1315\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1315"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1315"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1315"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}