One of the things I am currently struggling with is the fact that, in terms of TTCing, I don’t really fit in either camp.<\/p>\n
The TTC forums – even the TTC after loss forums – are full of people excitedly charting and having sex and getting pregnant. I find it hard to read forums like that. I’m sure many of the infertiles reading this remember those forums. It makes my head hurt sometimes. I do not always feel hopeful and excited. Most of the TTC after loss people are dealing with issues regarding loss only… not infertility. I am out of place.<\/p>\n
The infertility threads and forums, however, also don’t seem to suit me right now. I am charting, I am having sex. I am a long ways away from doing an IVF cycle. I’m not on any meds. If that were the only issue then I’d still feel okay with it, but it’s not. The thing that goes through my head is what if I DO get pregnant normally? I can’t help thinking about what a blow it would be to those women who are still cycling and doing everything they can for me to join up and get pregnant while having sex.<\/p>\n
The problem is simply that I don’t know<\/i>. I don’t know if this is going to work or if we’re in it for the long haul again. And until I do know I don’t feel right joining either group. In a year I’ll be able to look back and see clearly…. but until I actually get pregnant I’m afraid I’m just… in limbo.<\/p>\n
I just don’t see any groups for women dealing with infertility (or possible infertility) after late-term loss. I guess there’s just not enough of us on any one forum. I feel alone. :(<\/p>\n
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I discovered something last night that made me freak out briefly: my boobs still leak. They don’t leak on their own, which is why I never noticed anything out of the ordinary… but when I squeeze my nipples I sure as heck see milk. So I spazzed for a while wondering what the hell was up with this.<\/p>\n
I looked it up and apparently it’s quite normal. That’s a relief. <\/p>\n
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I have more I could say but I’m getting a nice headache, so I think I’m going to lay down.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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