Doctor appointment today to make sure nothing worse has developed, since my voice is STILL not back and it’s been a week since I first got sick. Result: nothing worse. It’s my sinuses, probably viral, and I have laryngitis from it. Fantastic. (I asked him what exactly laryngitis was, he said “irritation of the vocal chords.” Well duh, I could have told him I had that!<\/i>) He gave me a script for a cough suppressant with codeine, so I could sleep, and some antibiotics just in case it’s not viral. Whatever, at this point… just whatever. I’ll take anything if it helps it go away.<\/p>\n
I have discovered a pretty major problem, however: the “will make you drowsy, don’t take in the morning if you have to go to work” codeine stuff? DIDDLY-SQUAT. Oh for heaven’s sake, not again! Every medicine I’ve taken, over the counter or prescription, that was warned would make me drowsy has NOT done so. Sudafed? Cough medicine? Freakin’ codeine? Nada. Zip. Still awake. Apparently my body does not take hints very well. I do remember percocet made me drowsy… and very very loopy. I liked that stuff. (Had a couple pills after my laparoscopy.)<\/p>\n
I also picked up my anti-depressant refill today, but didn’t get to take one until after work. End result: was starting to go into withdrawal. That’s always fun. My hands were trembling and I felt really… twitchy. Brain running a little fast. Thankfully it was mild and only lasted a couple hours until my dose kicked in. But the rest of my day before then? Giant disaster. It was one of those really annoying moods where I KNOW I’m being completely irrational, and yet I can’t help myself. It’s like I just can’t quite get in control of it, my moods just run off the cliff without me. I felt my head pounding in a minor freak-out when I couldn’t get a stuck door open. I came across a bush that was wilting because of weeds overtaking it and nearly burst into tears. I had many moments today where I would just see or think of something and set off the water works. That is NOT like me. I am a very emotional, passionate person, but I do not normally have a temper and weepiness like that. It was taxing.<\/p>\n
That’s the thing with me and my meds. I’ve heard people talk about how they feel “numb” while taking SSRIs, and that’s totally not how it affects me at all. As you have all seen, I am still a very emotional person… I feel things very very deeply, good or bad. My pregnancy was so full of joy, my grief so full of sorrow. All of that while on the SSRIs. But when I’m off them it’s like something gets flicked past “normal” to “crazy.” Instead of having normal highs and lows it’s like I get a little manic-depressive with how hard I can crash. I just can’t explain it unless you’ve felt it, but it’s nasty. And that’s how I felt ALL the time before I got on the meds. I am just really thankful that they let me have normal emotions, let me stay in control. I would not be in a good spot without them.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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