So apparently the wait is over… I got my period. At 10dpo. Uhhh, wtf? Did I miss a memo here?<\/p>\n
First started this morning, a bit of blood (and by “a bit” I mean “quite a lot of spotting”). My first thought of course was holy shit, this is what happened on Devin’s cycle!<\/i> Spotting at 10dpo. I got excited… too excited. I didn’t really say much though, except to Kel. She and I were all hopeful together.<\/p>\n
But the spotting didn’t stop… it got heavier. And I was getting more and more perplexed. Of all the things I thought this could be, I did NOT expect AF 4 days early. But apparently that’s what this is. It’s gotten heavy enough I need a pad, and I’ve got a lot of AF cramps going on too. So what the hell? Did I O before my positive OPK? Or did I just have a really short luteal phase this time because I’m post-partum? This whole journey has one big “WTF?!” so I don’t know why this surprizes me.<\/p>\n
I’m not really sad<\/i>, though. Disappointed, yes. But… a little relieved too. I was nervous about being due so close to Devin’s birthday… before<\/i> his birthday. Like I told Kel this morning, I was kind of at a space of “whatever happens this month, I’m okay with that.” And I truly am.<\/p>\n
The one thing that does really sit heavy on my mind, however, is the infertility thing. Every cycle I don’t get pregnant is another step further away from a surprize “natural” (non-medically constructed) pregnancy. And that<\/i> worries me. I mean, if I can’t get pregnant on my own when my eggs are still fresh and new from pregnancy, well… it doesn’t bode too well.<\/p>\n
I told Kel today that honestly, if I didn’t have the infertility thing to deal with I’d probably just put off TTC for a month or two. If I thought I could plan<\/i> the timing of a pregnancy ideally I’d shoot for May-ish. But I don’t have that luxury. As the other infertiles know, the idea of sitting around planning your due date ahead of time is laughable. So I take whatever I get, whenever I can get it.<\/p>\n
I just want a baby, damnit. That’s all.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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