Today is going to be a rough day. Why do I know this? Because I am about two seconds away from an utter meltdown.<\/p>\n
It’s the tree, Devin’s tree. I went out to look at it again – the bloom has opened up – and it looks nothing<\/i> like the typical cherry blossom bloom that I expected\/wanted. I am irrationally angry and upset by this. We picked out a cherry tree, I wanted a cherry tree<\/i>, the kind with those gorgeous pink and white blooms. But Den insisted he wanted a fruit bearing tree, it was important to him so that’s what we went with. We tried hard to find out what it would look like in bloom, but we couldn’t find even ONE photo of a Danube cherry tree in bloom. Nothing. Den tried reassuring me, but damnit I should have thrown on the brakes right there. We ended up picking out out a cherry tree based on the type of fruit it gives, its shape and the color of its bark. And now, now it’s blooming and it doesn’t look right<\/i>. This is not the tree I expected. I’ve been so freaking excited and pleased with this tree until that bloom opened, and then it was like a slap in the face. I’m practically hysterical and I just want to yell at Den for getting the wrong goddamn tree<\/i>.<\/p>\n
And now there’s nothing we can do about it!!! This tree has been bought and planted. It’s Devin’s tree, it has been for weeks now. We can’t take it down or replace it. We can’t plant a new one. This is his tree now. And for the rest of my life I have to look at the wrong damn blooms!<\/p>\n
Insult on top of injury…. I don’t have my son and now I don’t even have the right freaking tree. I am so damn angry right now there are no words. I just want to crawl into bed and bawl for a good long time, but I have to go to work.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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