Dearest Baby Boy,<\/p>\n
Today you would be 4 weeks old. I really can’t believe the time has gone by so fast, though it’s no wonder… so much of it has been a haze. Days are all fading into one another. Honestly I don’t like to think about how old you would be. It makes me think of what we should have had, and I really don’t like to think about that. I don’t like to sit and wonder what I’d be doing right now, what you would be like. I prefer to think of what I had. You’ll always be my sleeping baby boy to me, so small and perfect. You’ll always be that devilish little boy who kicked me from the inside and hid from everyone else.<\/p>\n
If there was a heaven, I think you’d have stopped at the Rainbow Bridge to stay with Tessa. You would have been like your daddy and me, I’m sure, in love with doggies and wanting to stay where they are. I could see you two playing together, she’d have loved you and looked out for you. I was so sad when she died, knowing that you’d never get to meet her. Little did I know.<\/p>\n
Last Sunday your daddy and I went to the lawn & garden store and picked out your tree, a Danube Cherry Tree. Today I went back to buy the dragon I saw there… I saw him and just fell in love, he reminded me of you. He’s going to guard the base of your tree beside your memorial stone marker (which we haven’t picked out yet). This coming Sunday family is going to come over to help us plant the tree.<\/p>\n
I’ve been editing photos and purchasing frames so that everything can be on display on Sunday. I have your photo and some of me with my big belly that I’m going to frame. I find myself just staring at the photos sometimes, remembering… especially my pregnancy photos. They represent such a happy time with you. So very happy.<\/p>\n
I miss you every single day. Friends gave me a necklace with your name and birth stats on it, and I wear it constantly so you stay with me. We love you, baby boy. Sleep peacefully.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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