{"id":1088,"date":"2008-04-01T02:44:49","date_gmt":"2008-04-01T07:44:49","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/?p=1088"},"modified":"2008-04-01T02:44:49","modified_gmt":"2008-04-01T07:44:49","slug":"like-i-really-need-more-to-deal-with","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/lunardreams.net\/baby\/?p=1088","title":{"rendered":"Like I really need more to deal with?"},"content":{"rendered":"

I am having an issue with my teeth. I’ve always had sensitive teeth (one time I was SURE I had cavaties because they were hurting, went to the dentist just to be told my teeth were in perfect shape and I apparently had sensitive teeth. Yay, but… ow!). I normally have sensitivity to hot and cold, and pain when eating really sticky sweet things like caramel (I no longer eat caramel because of it… bummer). But for the past week it has gone past “sensitive” to “majorly fucking crazy sensitive.” I told Den about my teeth and he asked if it was triggered by sweets, hot\/cold or pressure… I replied, “Ummm, all of the above?” I am currently having issues eating toast<\/i>. Toast, people! It also isn’t located in one particular spot in my mouth…. it’s my left side, my right side, the top, the bottom… everything hurts. Even when I’m not<\/i> eating, everything is aching.<\/p>\n

This, combined with the throat thing that’s been bugging me for a week (post-nasal drip causing a sore throat and cough, blech yuck), is making me think something more is going on. From reading it sounds like sinusitis, how lovely. May need to make a trip to the doctor, bugger. Couldn’t just be a regular cold, noooo, my sinuses need to be all fucked up.<\/p>\n

Ooeeeeee the teeth are really hurting tonight.<\/p>\n

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Someone sent me this link to an old old post of Tertia’s about IVF Barbies<\/a>. Reading it gave me a chuckle. I was thinking about it for a while and realized it’s missing some: IVF After A Loss and Pregnant After A Loss Barbie. At first glance you might think they’re the same as the Veteran Barbies…. but they’re not. They know all the steps – they’ve been there before. But they’re more sad than angry. When once they were simply intolerant of Newbie Barbie and Pregnant Newbie Barbie and their idealism, now they watch sadly and wish they could be ignorant and idealistic again. They wish they believed in babydust and still believed that doing everything right meant IVF worked and you got a baby at the end of a pregnancy. Even Pregnant Veteran Barbie with her paranoias and fears seems so innocent to Pregnant After A Loss Barbie.<\/p>\n

I’ve been thinking a lot about categories – being on forums with their neatly defined subforums seems to do that to a person. I have noticed that right now there are very few forums that I seem to fit well in… only one, actually. It’s a quiet forum for those who have had a stillbirth. Now I really hate the “my pain is worse than your pain” game, but at the same time I have noticed a huge difference between the stillbirth forum and the general loss forum (both on the same site, with some posters that frequent both). There just seems to be a degree of soul-wrenching sorrow that the women of the stillbirth forum carry that is not present in the general forum (with exceptions, of course). I know that it is situational and personal, dependent on the variety of people who frequent that particular forum.<\/p>\n

I did peek in at the TTC after a loss subforum and quickly hightailed it out of there. More perky babydust than I ever wanted to shove up my ass, thanks. I am far too cynical for that crap anymore. (Though I do not begrudge those who enjoy that atmosphere. It’s just not for me.) There is an infertility forum, but I feel so far removed from those Newbie Barbies that I would just feel weird. Especially since I’m not even doing treatments anytime soon.<\/p>\n

Some stillbirth forums I’ve peeked in on don’t even seem right to me. That soul-wrenching sorrow? There’s a point where there’s just too much. There are some forums that I feel like, if I stayed there it would not help the healing process because you’re constantly getting bogged down by your emotions in a very heavy way. Yes, my heart hurts very deeply and no I don’t want to be around the uberperky. But at the same time there has to be some sort of balance.<\/p>\n

I just feel very out of place in so many ways. It’ll take while to find a new equilibrium.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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