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More fantastic news

February 25, 2009 — 8:51 pm

The nurse sounded happy on the phone. “This is the second-best call I’ve made this week!” she said. 2 frozen blasts of my 5 remaining, when they warned us we might not get any.

I admit, for a tiny split-second I was a little disappointed there weren’t more. Probably in large part because I guessed 3 and Den guessed 2, and he’s been right every. damn. time. this cycle. He guessed 25 eggs, 6 embryos, 2 frosties. I am not kidding. I want his crystal ball(s).

But then I hung up and said to myself HOLY CRAP WE HAVE FROZEN EMBRYOS. That was it, the crowning achievement – this cycle will officially go down in history as the Best Cycle Ever Imagined. First blastocyst transfer, first frosties, and obviously the best maturity rate EVER. This cycle is like My Cycle In Heaven. It’s unbelievable.

Our lab, as I said, only freezes the very BEST embryos. Their freeze rate is apparently very low… they warned us to not expect much, even with the number of blasts we had. So these two that we have frozen, they aren’t second-quality embryos that we could maybe throw in and see if they make it. We KNOW that they are equal in quality (or at least close to it) to the one we transferred this time. We have some fabulous, beautiful embryos frozen. For the next time… and the time after that.

This cycle produced THREE top quality embryos. Just stop and think about that for a minute. My previous cycles? Two embyos of questionable quality, or one embryo of really good quality (once). I was hoping and wishing for ONE really good one. I got three.

Our biggest hope is that I get pregnant with Shooting Star and then we can use our two frosty stars for future children. This is just the best position we could possibly be in. And in the event that this little Star doesn’t stick, we can put another one back in.

Either way, I am done with stims for some time. As much as we seem to have found something that worked for my eggs, it’s still hellishly stressful – to my mind and my body. Am I going to overstim? Are there going to be any quality eggs? Will they fertilize? Will I get OHSS? Will my body fuck up the timing of everything again? My body gets a break. I get a damn break. We have some known quantities now.

The nurse said this is the most excited and confident she’s ever been for me. Which would, I assume, include the cycle that I actually did get pregnant with a baby. So that’s quite something, isn’t it.

One week to wait. It’s going to be a long week… especially if things continue like today and I keep fucking up everything I touch at work. If I’m this bad now, how much more spaceheaded will I get when I’m actually pregnant?? Does not bode well for my work. All I wanted to do was get home and post about all of this and bask in the happy glow of a cycle going RIGHT.

I really enjoyed working the past 6 months because it gave me something to do other than think about what I was going through in my life. But right now? My life is going WELL. And I’d really LIKE to sit and think about it. Work kind of takes a second seat to happiness.

14 responses to “More fantastic news”

  1. stacie says:

    I have been following your blog for a little while now but haven’t commented. I just want to come out to say that I am so excited for you! Congratulations on the two frosties and the wonderful embie you transferred!

  2. Karen says:

    Fantastic news Natalie! Now there’s just one more piece of good news to get and it will truly be the perfect cycle. I’m keeping my fingers crossed for a positive beta and a very sticky embryo.

  3. Diane says:

    I know how excited I am about both frosties and shooting star. I can’t even imagine how you must feel, both excited and cautious. I hope you don’t mind that I have placed you on my very small and only personal friends pt&v list.
    Love you!

  4. Raychel says:

    Congrats sweetie, this is amazing!

  5. Lannie says:

    That’s great news indeed :D
    Fingers crossed!

  6. Emerald Rose says:

    I love it when you post such positive posts. I’m so happy you are so optimistic. This cycle is definitely the best cycle so far. Prayers continue your way.

  7. Kari says:

    If anyone deserves for things to go well, it’s you and Den. One perfect shooting star, two perfect ice stars… I am so-so-so hopeful for you!

  8. Anne says:

    yay!! bask in this wonderful-ness, you more than deserve this. :)

  9. Kathy says:

    Congratulations Natalie, Den and Shooting Star! :) That is wonderful news to have two frosties! This is the best cycle ever and will be even more so when you get that BFP! :) Sending lots of postive thoughts, prayers and sticky vibes your way…

  10. Me says:

    Wow. That is awesome news!!!

  11. Chrissy says:

    That is freaking awesome!!! YEAH!!!

  12. S says:

    This is just super freaking awesome!! well done little embies!! =)

  13. Heather says:

    I am so happy for you!!!