I’m pretty bummed about messing this month up. I know there’s still a chance, but we could have – and should have – done a lot better job about BDing more frequently with O coming up. I got overconfident and lazy, I guess. Gar. But I really want a September baby. I don’t want an October baby. This sounds really stupid, but… my mom was born on October 29 and I don’t much fancy my baby being born at the same time. November is getting really close to christmas, Den wants to keep trying, I’m not so sure. We might end up taking just one month off (so we don’t have a baby AT christmas).
I’m trying to convince myself that I’m not pregnant. I know this is silly, but… I feel like if I convince myself I’m not then I will be, but if I think I AM pregnant, I won’t be. Stupid, I know. But we don’t have a very good chance this month. I asked one of the admin/advisor people at FF about how long sperm can survive in creamy CM and she said 24 hours. Which means if I did ovulate on the CD 12 there’s pretty much nill chance. But if I ovulated at CD 14 I still have a chance. It’s not great though. :(
So much for my body behaving perfectly after the pill, huh? That’ll teach me.